Nothing changes
I was doing so well for weeks. All ducks were in a row. New job. New apartment. New girl (not girl friend just yet). I thought for sure I was moving on; that even though we haven’t seen each other since April I’d more or less put this situation to bed. I wanted to hear from you so badly and I still do but I can’t put my life on pause. Seven months ago I made a grandiose gesture and you weren’t ready. You may still not be. I know nothing, and I’m not about to bug our mutual friends.
The fact remains… you are the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep.
Nothing changes.
Emphasis mine. Because I’ve been thinking how nothing in my life has really changed all that much in a long time. It seems like things are so much different than they were, but they’re not. They’re always the same. I wish you were too.